Yoga Journal - Yoga Meditation - Thoughts on Thinking
Knowing what to do with your wandering thoughts is perhaps the greatest challenge for meditators.
By Edward Espe Brown

At my first formal interview with Suzuki Roshi, I didn't know what to
say. Perhaps I really could not think of what to say, or nothing I was
thinking was worth saying. I was young and sincere, and I wanted to
make a good impression. After a couple of minutes of sitting quietly
facing each other, I began to relax and Suzuki took the initiative.

"How's your meditation?"

"Not so good," I replied.

"What's not so good?"

"I'm thinking a lot."

"And what's the problem with thinking?" he asked.

That stumped me. When I looked directly for the problem with
thinking, I couldn't find it. My fallback position was to tell him the
do's and don'ts of meditation.

"You're not supposed to think in meditation," I said. "You're supposed to quiet your mind.

"Thinking is pretty normal, don't you think?"

I had to agree with the Roshi, who then explained that the problemwith thinking was not thinking per se, but thinking that was stuck.

When people tell me meditation is "difficult," what they really mean
is that quieting their minds or stopping their thinking is what's
difficult. And just as I was as a new student, they are extremely
reluctant to examine the issue more carefully. It's not so simple. And
when it is not simple, the simplest approach is to stick to the rules.

I've known people who have seriously devoted themselves to
"not-thinking," and when I ask them if they called to let their friends
know that they would be late, they say, "No, I didn't think of that."
This is not a new phenomenon. An old Chinese Zen Master once said,
"Some of you are taking me literally when I say, 'Don't think,' and you
are making your minds like a rock. This is a cause of insentiency and
an obstruction to the Way. When I say not to think, I mean that if you
have a thought, think nothing of it."

Mind Against Mind
The capacity to think is an essential
element of our lives. We need to plan, make decisions, and communicate.
The problem is not that we think but that we haven't had a truly new
thought for most of our lifetime. In other words, our thinking is
fixed.

For example, once I believe no one likes me, do you think I'm going to
let anything change my mind? No way. I can explain any contradictory
evidence: You don't know me well enough; if you really knew me, you
wouldn't like me; you are just pretending to like me so you can get
something out of me. Thinking tends to be for and against—and to be
intolerant of thoughts that do not obviously concur. This is often
referred to as "the disease of the mind is to set mind against mind."

Rather than eliminate thinking, you could say that one of the basic
skills to develop in meditation is to be able to hold and sustain
contradictory thoughts—calming the impulse to eliminate the opposition.
One obvious example has to do with sitting still. You want to sit
still, so can you have the thought to move and go on sitting still? Or
do you have to do what the thought says?

If sitting still means eliminating the thought of moving, you may find
meditation difficult—because the way to remove thoughts is to tighten
muscles, and this makes sitting quite painful. Holding on to a thought,
such as, "I am not going to move," also tightens muscles. This is what
you are busy doing a good deal of the time, so if you are serious about
releasing and calming the body and the mind, thoughts are going to be
popping up one after the other. The trick is not to mind.

You could say that the point of meditation is to liberate thinking, and
understanding this, you are ready to examine what to do with thinking
during meditation. There are two basic strategies. One is to do
something other than thinking and to use your thinking to help
accomplish that. The other is to give your thinking something to do
other than what it usually does.

It's important to keep in mind that the goal is not to eliminate your
thinking. I hear this all the time: "I'm so sick and tired of my
thinking. I just want to get rid of it once and for all." Your thinking
knows you want to get rid of it, so it is going to cling to you for all
it's worth.

So what do you do with thinking during meditation? This first strategy,
which is basic to Buddhism, especially Zen, emphasizes posture and
breathing. With energy and commitment, give your attention fully to
them rather than to your thinking.

This means emphasizing a straighter spine, including the small of the
back curved slightly in and the neck long. But don't be shy about
asking your thinking to lend a hand when needed. Is the neck shortening
and the chin jutting forward? That's a red flag that thinking is in
full bloom, and when your thinking notices that, lengthen your neck.
You can also have your thinking count the breaths, say on the
exhalation, or note the breath as it proceeds in and out.

Any Questions?
The second strategy involves giving your
thinking a task. Good ways of doing this include koan study, the
vipassana practice of noting, and any host of other creative endeavors.
For instance, you could challenge your thinking with specific
questions, such as, "What was your original face before your parents
were born?" (Chew on that for a while.) Or you could practice taking
mental notes, as appropriate: "thinking," "judging," "planning,"
"remembering," "anger," "joy," "seeing," or "hearing."

There is also the koan of daily life: Ask your thinking, "What is it
you really want?" or "What is the most important point?" Any one of
these activities can keep thinking occupied. In a sense, what you are
doing is inviting your thinking to join you in meditation rather than
trying to exclude it. This is similar to how you might work with a
young child, explaining, "Here's what we are doing, meditating, and I
would like you to help me by observing posture, sensing the breath, or
whatever it is we are focusing on."

A third approach is to make a deal with your thinking: Leave me
alone for now and I'll check back with you later. The secret here is
that you are not trying to get rid of your thinking permanently, only
temporarily. This is similar to the parent-child model: "Listen
sweetheart, I am really busy right now, so please don't bother me.
Could you play by yourself for awhile? And later we will play
together." You directly ask your thinking to leave you alone—to suspend
judgment, gossip, and commenting so you can meditate—and agree to get
together afterward to listen to what your thinking has to say.

But even with this approach, your thinking often can be very
suspicious. I learned how to deal with this obstacle from a speech
consultant when I had trouble expressing myself at meetings.

"Tell me what you wanted to say," she prompted

"I can't." When she wondered why not, I explained: "My thinking won't let me. It says it won't be good enough."

She offered some instructions: "Ask your thinking to go into the room
next door while you talk, and promise that you will check back with it
when you are done."

"It won't go."

"There's a television there."

"It doesn't believe I'll check back."

"Promise."

"It still won't go," I lamented.

"Close the door! Force it shut!" she insisted.

Finally, I told her what I had wanted to say at the meeting. "Now,
let's ask your thinking what it thought," she said. My thinking was
pleased and relieved to be consulted: "That was rather good," it told
me. But my speech consultant wasn't finished. "And now let's ask your
thinking if it has any suggestions for improvement?"

My thinking was so pleased and politely responded, "You might have tried this or emphasized that a little more."

This was a fundamental shift from the more habitual approach of simply
telling my thinking to go away and not "bother" me. Here, I asked my
thinking to be quiet so as to closely observe what was happening—and
then tell me about it.

Always be mindful that you and your thoughts are aiming to discover
engaging, creative, enjoyable ways to meditate—as well as ways to live,
awaken, and benefit each other. Think of your thinking not as an
adversary but as a spiritual friend.

Edward Espe Brown is a Zen priest and the author of The Tassajara Bread Book (Shambhala, 1995) and Tomato Blessings and Radish Teachings (Riverhead Books, 1997).